When you had your besties with you, all you can think was the memories you'll build together. And love?? It's another chapter.
I never experienced real love before and as time passes by, age is cruelly increasing. I saw young couples here and there and they were smiling happily as if there's zero problem in their lives.
My passion is meant only for my family. I've been in love with this guy for such a long time...since I stepped both feet into high school. I still love him for all of my heart, but he doesn't seem to have the same rhythm of heartbeats with mine.
He cares for me as a friend, he sees me as a friend and he loves me as a friend. He has this rule that he can't fall in love with his own friends.
How I wish I was a stranger to him and hoping when we meet, we won't be friends but lovers.
I've told my sister about this once, and she told me to move on. Words are easy to be said - "Just move on", but actions take a longer period to be made. It's difficult to let go. Sometimes I wonder if my feeling towards him is pure and sometimes I feel like I'm just a trifle.
But whatever it is, I still love him...and maybe this time, I'm tuning the rhythm, the same as his, loving him as a friend.
XoXo
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