Their Minds Think the Same...

I sat at one corner of the classroom with a wide view of my friends from the back. It seemed like I can clearly see their bubbles of minds. And it described the same thing. . .

HOME!

The Little Voice Speaks...

I may have been a little bit annoying to my friends lately. However, it doesn't mean I dislike or being disliked by 'em. Anyway...that's just my intro..

A couple of days ago, when I was sitting in front of my laptop, alone, in my room...I looked at all those pictures..reminiscing the past..oh..gosh..how plump I was..and still am now...Ladies and gents, sorry to say this..but those pics make me feel SUCK!!!!

Shit! Just then, I soon felt like I should lose some of those kilos or pounds I must say.....

Then...I've made the most wise and mad decision ever..I want to be an anorexic! Yes! That's it!!! Anorexia....I don't care what people will say and I don't mind the sufferings I'll have to go through...

The thought of being an an anorexic is getting stronger day by day...I HATE MY BODY! I HATE MYSELF! I HATE EVERY PART OF ME! They look so pretty in those dresses, they look so charming in those T-shirts, they look so cool in those jackets...and I...CAN'T DO and LOOK as the way they are in all of those THINGS!

I love Korean style and fashion...But I have none of the virtues to wear those elegant and stylish dresses, T-shirts and jeans.

Yeah..the JEANS...I have had once a Jeans-lover..I love to wear Levi's. But...everytime I viewed myself in the mirror, I disgusted those thighs, the hips...and the humps! I promised myself to never ever wear jeans again..

Oh..dear God..Forgive me for being ungrateful of what I have..I'm so so so sorry....

The pressure keeps on pressing me to the thoughts of limitation and depression of life...Yet, I will never bow down to suicide..I just want to be..NORMAL..Just like the others..Yes..Just like the others..Just like them..