A couple of days ago, when I was sitting in front of my laptop, alone, in my room...I looked at all those pictures..reminiscing the past..oh..gosh..how plump I was..and still am now...Ladies and gents, sorry to say this..but those pics make me feel SUCK!!!!
Shit! Just then, I soon felt like I should lose some of those kilos or pounds I must say.....
Then...I've made the most wise and mad decision ever..I want to be an anorexic! Yes! That's it!!! Anorexia....I don't care what people will say and I don't mind the sufferings I'll have to go through...
The thought of being an an anorexic is getting stronger day by day...I HATE MY BODY! I HATE MYSELF! I HATE EVERY PART OF ME! They look so pretty in those dresses, they look so charming in those T-shirts, they look so cool in those jackets...and I...CAN'T DO and LOOK as the way they are in all of those THINGS!
I love Korean style and fashion...But I have none of the virtues to wear those elegant and stylish dresses, T-shirts and jeans.
Yeah..the JEANS...I have had once a Jeans-lover..I love to wear Levi's. But...everytime I viewed myself in the mirror, I disgusted those thighs, the hips...and the humps! I promised myself to never ever wear jeans again..
Oh..dear God..Forgive me for being ungrateful of what I have..I'm so so so sorry....
The pressure keeps on pressing me to the thoughts of limitation and depression of life...Yet, I will never bow down to suicide..I just want to be..NORMAL..Just like the others..Yes..Just like the others..Just like them..
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