Thursday, July 29, 2010

THIS IS SO BEYOND MY PATIENCE!!

Have you ever felt annoying much when there's this type of people, who look they care for you but actually NOT?!

Have you ever tried to run away from MISHAPS but COULDN'T DO SO?

Have you ever encountered MISERY and tried to replace with HAPPINESS yet it's WORTH NOTHING?

Have you ever thought of COMMITTING SUICIDE though you do aware of the CONSEQUENCES?

I have been thinking a lot with these HAVE-QUESTIONS!!

I can't understand why people tend to view the negativity first than the positive parts.

Throughout nearly 19 years I lived, a day was not even a FORTUNATE day for me.

I ended up crying in my crammed room!
I ended up throwing things against the wall!
I ended up cutting myself with small knife!
I even tried to choke myself with my sinful and bare hands!
Oh God! How selfish I was!

But then....

THESE ENDS were useless at all...
I gained nothing!

Netizens......

Today, the skies are dark and gloomy.
Sound of the thunder seems to roar to warn me.

To warn me that life is not PERFECT!

Ask yourself: "Are you lucky, fortunate, and perfect enough?"

++++++EXIT++++++

Monday, July 26, 2010

Untitled~

THIS IS NOT WHAT I WANT.

I HATE THIS PLACE.

I HATE THIS SITUATION.

I HATE EVERYTHING.

THIS IS REALLY NOT WHAT I WANT.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

I want CAMERA!

Am not being spoilt and am not being too demanding!
But I am so damn materialistic!
Everytime I spot new Nokia phones release, I will set a target I wanna have that PHONES!
Sometimes, if the price is reasonable, I will buy it on the spot. Get me? ON THE SPOT!
Of course I have to withdraw money first from my account.

That's phones. Let's go to laptops! I'm super addicted to ACERs!
My family likes ACER and NOKIA, but, currently my dad uses SONY ERRICSON. Anyway, ACER!
Yes! ACER! I've seen its phones and OMG! I want THEM!!
It's laptop ACER TimelineX is super HOT! Can't wait to have it! I'm fallin' in love with SONY VAIO and APPLE lappies too..GOSH! Help me. I'm addicting towards these gadgets!

Now, CAMERA! I want CANON, I want NIKON, and I want SAMSUNG, any brands and any thing will do as long as it's a camera which I can use to fulfill my desire in photography!

Anyone knows about camera? Help me to find one and please, do recommend me some...

Oh my GOD! I need to save money. Money..money..money...I'm saving you!

XOXO netizens!!!

Happy Birthday My Friend---->Ellisa Bulan Anyi

Me and Ellisa at Malacca Safari during school trip to West Malaysia.

Last school day for our Form 4. She's a prefect too!


She's 19th! Finally..OMG. You're getting old dear Sa..
Hahhaha...
Ellisa is my best friend. She's always be there when I'm in need..
Yes. I miss the moment when we are together.
Wish to meet you again.

Anyway...
Happy Birthday to you Ellisa.
May GOD bless you.

All the best in your studies and carve a beautiful and majestic future ahead!

XOXO darling~
Chaengil chukahamnida to you.....

Saturday, July 24, 2010

| Miscellaneous: It's shattered everywhere |

The pieces of work are everywhere!
They break into tiny little pieces and some in speck!
OMG! What should I do? Collect them and put 'em in this one whole "masterpiece"?
I'm so so dead!
I should work my ass!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG! OMG! & OMG!
Stress!
Yes! Final exam!! I'm stressed!


I work day and night. And it goes on and on...


I'll kill YOU if you say I look STRESS!


I always come across this sign!


I break the glass of work!



Work! Work! Work! Find it and work it!

XOXO everyone!


LUCIFER


I've been listening to KOREAN SONGS since I was in Form 4. Still remember how I've fallen in love with their songs...

TVXQ @ Dong Bang Shin Ki..Known as Gods Rise From the East [I guess that's what it means], caught me in their charismatic power..Oh my GOD, their voices are like angels...[hyperbole much..] Anyway, wish they were together now after the trio (Junsu, Jaejoong & Yoochun) filed summons to their agency, SMEntertainment, leaving only my dearest lovely Max Changmin and leader Yunho U-know.
Well enough with TVXQ, let's get to the point.

LUCIFER! Yeah, I first thought that this word is quite sensitive and am saying VERY VERY SENSITIVE & CONTROVERSIAL! And am still thinking the same thought now..

But, SHINee, SME owns these boys, brings up their new single, LUCIFER, to live!
Well, as I browsed the meaning of its lyrics and its translation, I kinda think that the title has nothing to do with the meaning..What'cha say bout that??

Yet, I don't really care bout the title. Everytime I sing along with 'em, I skip the word "LUCIFER".

Their concepts also altered A LOT! From innocent young males to charismatic, sexy and charming pop princes! Gez! Am saying it right. Scroll down to see their pictures. They've changed a lot man!!! XOXO!










SHINee-LUCIFER.


Watch the MV at YouTube or at any websites. Just google, you'll find the links.
I bookmarked this website http://www.allkpop.com/ and get the latest news about KOREANS entertainment industries and styles and fashion! Take some time to visit it! Sure do love the language used. It's in English, so no worries!!

XOXO darlings...

Thursday, July 22, 2010

The EXTREME...

I can't feel..
I can't sense..
I can't do..
And I can't think..
For I am extremely super exhausted..
I slept at 1 @ 2 am for the past few weeks..
If you ever asked me something, you will receive these questions first:
"Haaa??? What??Pardon me, what did you say??"
So folks, sorry if I seem to ignore you..
I do notice but I can't concentrate much..

XOXO..=) Tired~

Sunday, July 18, 2010

You serious?

Me: Hey..I'm gettin' hell with this! I wanna quit!!!
Mr. X: No joking. You've been here for a year now. It's too late to quit and too early to stop. Better think twice.
Me: Think twice??! There's no second thought and there's no doubt! I wanna QUIT!
Mr. X: Why you hate this place so much?
Me: It keeps me miles of distances between me and my family. I want my HOME. I want my BED. I want to be with MY FAMILY.
Mr. X: Stop with the homesick! Stiffen that upper lip!
Me: Ain't do so! I'm stick to my decision, this decision! QUIT!
Mr. X: Are you serious?

======>Exit<======

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Long Long Ago.

Little sister was playing with sand on the field. Brother loved to dig up holes and piled them up onto another side. Big sister was helping mom, clearing the heavy overgrown yard beneath our quarters. I was inside the house, being an excellent watcher, observer and soon critically analysing each of the individuals I saw in front of me. Yes. Humans love to judge. So am I.

Mom moved from our hometown Long Lama to this small, almost deserted town, known as Long Bedian. As a teacher, she just followed what the government requested her to do, and yes, moving from schools to schools was no exception. I kept thinking, why do I have to follow? What's the rational for all of us to follow mom to this kind of place, so inconvenient town? No phone, no network coverage at all, and no electricity. We had to walk for kilometers in order to make a phone call to granny. Every night, when Mr. Moon soared high up in the sky, and the clock struck midnight, one of the workers will turn off the generator, assuming that all of the students and teachers were soundly asleep.

And every single night, we had wars with mosquitoes and tiny insects. Mom realised this matter should be taken in action, thus she kept all pennies and bought mosquitoes netting for us. At night, we would tied up the strings, from another ends to the other, and it almost looked like a tent. Visible tents. I used to play with my little sister, who was by that time, 6 years old, hiding and rolling inside-out of the netting. Mom would remind us to keep our voices and hustles down, not to disturb the teachers who lived just next door. There were few times when brother joined us and big sister would just sit and watch till one of us started to cry, of course it was my little sister who covered with tears, felt that she was bullied by me and brother and big sister will come to comfort her. By those times, mom was not home, either she was in the school's hall or in the staffroom.

I met a number of friends, they are so innocent and sincere, I can say, I had the whole class as my friends. They never betrayed you, and if they were, we would have a small fight and when morning came, we will be friends again. I loved to sing, play, jump and sprint together with them. Games was a BIG YES and we loved to PLAY and PLAY and PLAY. We were very active, well, they were, not me. Most of the moments, I enjoyed watching instead of participating. Some other times, they would desperately drag me to join them, but I held back tightly. Angeline, Sharonnie and Imelda. We were BFFs. I became fond with the teachers and their children. I liked it when Mr. Headmaster brought the entire class watching educational cartoon programmes in his house, and he would go for a meeting, leaving us alone there under the surveillance of his wife.

I always had been longing for the last bell of school to ring. When the bell struck twice, I ran back to our quarters, pulled off my shoes and arranged them properly on the racks and started to turn on the television. During that time, we only had antenna and it was enough for us to entertain ourselves with Mickey Mouse short stories on Brunei TV Channel. Frankly, I didn't even know Mickey was under Disney, and I disliked Donald Duck the most for he was hot-tempered. Well, that has changed. I soon loved all Disney's cartoons. Parents finally put an effort in subscribing ASTRO and finally the four of us could watch more than Disney channel. Oh..How I wish to feel, to see those moments again. Everytime I look at the blue sky during day and gazed at the bright moon and amazed by the sparkles from the glittering stars at night, I would reminisced the moments I went through when I was in schooling in SK Long Bedian. Papa, mom, big sist, brother and dearest little sister, I LOVE YOU ALL! LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH!

Yes. Childhood was always be the best memory ever. The moments were unforgettable. Netizens, you should know that those moments could not be replaced and never will repeat. Appreciate what you've experienced, learnt from it and you'll find maturity in everything you own. It's irreplaceable.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Nite before the long and definitely tiring journey~

=Phone ringing=
Me: Hello,Mom.

Mom: Hi..how are you today? Heard you'll have a school trip to erm..what's the name of the name again? Malong? Calong?

Me: It's Salong Mom. It's a remote area. Rural place. No phone, no electricity...well..probably there's no network coverage too...so I believe don't expect any calls to be reached later.

Mom: Really? Anyway, what time will you and your entire colleagues leave the institute?

Me: We gather around 8.45am and bus will leave at 9am. So yeah. 9!

Mom: Don't forget to bring enough water and food. In case they don't provide food early. And please bring along important needs. Make sure everything's prepared.

Me: Sure. Will do so. Don't worry mom. We're going to stay there like..erm..2 days and a night.

Mom: 2 Days??! Now make sure you bring enough clothes. Don't go near by the river and if you have to take bath there, please be careful and don't swim too far from the land. Always have a friend beside you.

Me: Yes mom. I will always have a friend beside me. And lecturers will be there. So don't worry too much.

Mom: Still, you need to take a good care of yourself. Alright. Mom feel very sleepy. Sleep early. Have a safe journey. Don't forget to pray before you begin your day. Ok..? Alright. Goodnight sweetheart.

Me: Yes. I will. Goodnight mom. Inform you if there's any changes tomorrow. Nite.

=Calling disconnected=

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You see...mom always cares about her children no matter where they are, what they are doing, and what they will do in the future. Moms have the senses, a very strange yet nature relation between them and their children. They love their children and want the best for them. You may be bored to listen to all the nags, all the same old lectures and all the blames. However, when you think about it again and again, they did these because they love and care about you. Maybe..It's something netizens have heard over and over again, but every mother treasures a child because that child is a precious and a wonderful gift God ever created and given to them.

From today onwards, love your mom no matter how bad she treats you, no matter how forgetful she is and no matter how busybody she would be. But mom always be mom. I love you mom. You are the angel of my heart, the guidance of my life and definitely and surely the best mom, my siblings and I ever have. I love you so much. We love you so much. Dad, not to be forgotten too, we love you dad. I'll have a story about you later dad. And mom, happy belated birthday. Age is turning old, but spirit is turning younger. Love you mom.....XOXO..