Hopes. Dreams. Loves.

Hopes. Dreams. Loves.

Pray. Reality. Time.

Xoxo

I miss you, my love.

Everlasting Memories

I don't really get to say this to people around me but yes, people always say that, "it seems like it was yesterday when I first met you." ...And as for me, it seems like yesterday, I met these amazing people. 

As the eyes witnessed great joys and bliss of these two perfect couple for life, the togetherness that we had made, were wonderful memories.

Congratulations to Dayang Syafiqah and her husband for your marriage. May the love, joy and happiness blossom in your marriage's garden. We are grateful and honoured to be there to share the joy and happiness.

Friends from IPG with the groom and bride. May be blessed with endless love.

Won't hurt for a-free-style photo session.

So.....I love this man.

Truly grateful to be here. I love you all. And thank you very much for the captured images of these everlasting memories. Credits to photographers.

XoXo

Farewell is never the end.

Who could never thought that five years, and a half, would come to an end...

There were so many ups and downs...

There were so much memories made...

Within that five and a half years, I made memories, I made mistakes, I made joyful thoughts, I made friends, I made stupid things and of all, I made it.

To those who I may have hurt through my words and the way I acted, I am truly sorry for I am only a human that committed to lots of mistakes.

To those who have helped and gave advices, I am truly grateful and thankful for your endless kindness.

To those who have widen my thoughts, I feel thankful and want to hear more from you

and

to that one person, who has changed and made my days better and awesome, I love you.

Thank you, my dear sweetheart and wonderful friends and lecturers... I love all of you!

XoXo

MILES TO GO.

I would raise my hands and shout out for freedom, but that won't be necessary as there are miles to walk through.

I would say this is the final for this journey, but that won't be reflect the truth when there's more to come.

I would say goodbye if I want to, but that won't be easy for saying goodbye is the hardest to say.

XoXo

THIS MAN.

I LOVE YOU.

XOXO

That part of me.

Will time be the measurement to what we are now?

Will memory be the treasure to what we have now?

Will you be the one standing beside me forevermore?

With all - time, memory and you - these become a part of me. A part that I ought not to lose. I have tried all my best to finally find myself loving someone so dearly that I am committed to a point where most of the others have doubts. It is impossible to let you go. Not even a second of time that I want to take my eyes off you. Let me love you. Love you with all of my heart. Love you with all of my soul. And love you till the very end.

XoXo

And it goes on...

You never know until you try it out. This weekend is considered to be "the longest" weekend within this semester. Even though with workloads on the desk, I found myself escaping from it by having great times with the man of my heart. Oh gosh...I really love him.

We have a deal...a deal with no expiry date...

I love him so much. Thank you love.

XoXo

Hello August. Hello memories.

It was a messed up holiday. A pretty "messed up" *wink*. The days went by with my little sister caught me smiling alone. I had fun times with Youth Momentum's concerts and great thoughts with my brother. A quick journey back to my old hometown gave a tremendous flashback of the old days - when you were kids, when your cousins poked you and you broke your arms and scratched your knees...

As memories are bound together in our mind, I found these pictures that have captured my heart over and over again. Truly, reminiscing of childhood dreams.

My brother, my little sister, my mom and I. We were sitting and hoping for the end-of-the-year holiday to come. Photo was taken by my dad (if I am not mistaken)

Here's another nostalgic picture that froze my childhood moment. We were with our late great grandmother who took great care of all of us. We miss her, so much! p/s: Notice that crazy little sister of mine.

XoXo

What we did before raya?

We had great times. And appreciate all those times you have. You won't have the same thing for the second time. This was what happened before the holidays. Credits to the photographers.

xoxo

Wishing all of my friends Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri and Happy Holidays.

And the weekend goes with an anniversary.

I am thankful enough for the precious time I have spent for almost more than five years with these wonderful, lovely people. They are not ordinary people, I would say, they are EXTRAordinary with their own ways.

July the 13th marked the 5th anniversary of our bonding, meeting and friendship. Some of us would say that we've met just like yesterday and now it's almost 5 years. I love them for who they are. They are awesome with pretty hearts. Credits to the photographers and the owner of the camera, Mr. Geoffrey Lim for it has made memories to all.

XoXo *hugs*....

I can spot hardwork over here. Oh! Madam Vasanthi, a good cook that can delight your tastebuds.

As FIFA fans, they were making their predictions of which team gonna hold the title as the champion. So, what say you two Miss Fathiah and Miss Francesca?

They had their first bite on the tasty food. And smile for the cam!

This was one of the delicacies that they were after. In a flash, it had finished!

So here's come the hungry people. Even as they take turn for food, some eat and take at the same time.

Mr. Teo...with typical expression.

Dedicated lecturers, Mdm. Vasanthi and Miss Zainab.

This happened spontaneously.

And here's another one.

Spot that guy?

We tried our best to fit in every flash and capture.

This picture was taken with awesome thoughts with wonderful souls. A snap and it was perfectly awesome!

Credits to all of the photos above. Thanks for the memories. You all are in my heart, always.

XoXo

We with Mahua.

An escape from busy schedule and shifted it to mother nature gave wonderful treats after all. It was an escape that can't be forgotten. A quiet weekend with endless anxiety of the upcoming exam result to be revealed soon. I passed and thank YOU, God for that.

Here's how the weekend went through. Credits to all who were involved. You have made my day. I am sorry if I ever did any mistakes during the short trip. I love you all.

Spot where this is and make it as one of your weekend destinations.

The park just naturally captured my heart.

You are almost there..Just a little walk away.

We are done!! and not yet too!

We took this as a group-pie. Hihihi..thanks for self-timer, we were able to fit everyone's in.

The water was just too cold but captivated at the same time.

Meet my new nature friend...of course I let it go to its own home.

XoXo

Welcome.

It is such a lovely awesome day!

XoXo!

That bullet shoots like a boomerang.

That bullet shoots like a boomerang. 

It is just my saying of what goes around comes around. Some of us may call it as 'Karma'. I would not use the term 'karma' to define my current situation. It is rather a complicated judgement of what happens between me and that someone. I admit, with both hands raised up high in the air, that I am a complete ignorance in feelings and thoughts. I forget something if it doesn't mean anything to me.

One of the difficulties I have is that I cannot trust people easily, what more to say trusting myself. It is just a choice that I am easily blended in and if you are hurt because of that - I apologise but that how I did it my way.

So...ignorance, you say. Yes, I ignore people, not that I do not care, but just that I believe every one of us needs a time of our own (agreed?). And that exactly what I did to that someone. I ignored and ignored. And somehow, that feelings deepen and guess what, I cared!

I care for you. I am amazed by your willingness and sacrifices. I am pleased with the way you think. So, I hope you can make everything just goes fine as it is.

Stay with me...

XoXo

PERDANA

They won.

XoXo

So...here we are.

Happy Kaamatan and Gawai!

It's not too late to wish those who celebrate both Kaamatan and Gawai festivals. Happy celebrating with your family and friends. Get the chance to meet people and discover cultures.

XoXo

They caught me for 3 months.

So...the battle is still on then.

XoXo

Apa plan nya?

Sekiranya ada orang tanya saya pa saya bikin ni cuti, jawapan saya memang senang seja.

Teda. Pigi putung gatah kali.

Kayu gatah pun teda, ni kan maw pigi putung lagi.

Naah...nda ada apa2 plan sy ni cuti. Kbai.


XoXo

Gotta hit the break with your shoes...!

It's quite a long break...agreed? I am charged with the guilt of being not too productive today. Yes, people. I raise both of my hands for that and you can see the white flag.

I slept late...even though my body was exhausted after such "awesome" journey with probably 35 degree out there..and today...oh yeah...I woke up at 9.45am and went back to sleep..and..oh gosh! It's the middle of the day. I must get up and I read one of the messages in my phone. My mother asked me to format her laptop.

I am scared of formatting laptop, as if I am asking someone to erase his or her memory of something...well, I restored some files and hit the format button. Whatever happens, let it happens. And walla...it's 5pm. I left the laptop with all of it's computer-words-that-I-don't-understand to itself.

Got my sport shoes on and went out with my brother and cousin. And...it was not a good starter for sweating your stamina out. I was out of breath and ashamed of myself, of course. But..I did not stop there..we went back home and there I was, running on the roadside. I planned to go somewhere further, but with the bushes around and creepy tall leaves, I disregarded my desire.

So, that is pretty much what I did today. Not too productive. Happy holidays btw.

XoXo? Kiss hug kiss hug babies.

p/s: I cancelled of jogging for further distance as I saw a baby snake crossing the road. Too dangerous for my bulky legs.

If it's my destiny, then I leave it all to God.

Anything can happen. My friend once told me that anything can happen, be it the good and bad ones, it will happen. You can't blame anyone for things happen... it is either be as your luck or just a terrible encounter.

Few weeks ago, I was confused with nothing but of the bastards and troublemakers that I, of course, can't pen them down here...however, wise decisions and purposeful reflections led me to be more careful these days.

It was like an irony...I always fear of getting to know someone close, afraid that hearts will break, waking all dreams and a dead life that never learns to live. As my fear grows, my curiosity and eagerness to endeavor keep on emerging and heighten. And well..let just say that...something happens....

So...XoXo.

Counting...the dead end.

I thought that it was few weeks away. Well, darling, count check, it's days away. It really didn't bother me much when the others said that they'll be home earlier than I am. It is not that I don't miss home or so...but I guess, I know what will happen when I get home. It will be the same as previous holidays when I didn't even get the chance to be as productive as I planned it to be. In the end, I hate holidays yet oddly, hoping for it more.

XoXo.

What You Think You Are Expecting turn out to be the Unexpected

It was a rough week. Really? I claimed no victory in it and also lost nothing. Let just say, it was definitely my mistakes for not working hard enough, not hard enough after all.

Thus, as I finally can breathe without any burdens (probably) on my shoulders, I did the unexpected. Okay, let's talk about the unexpected. I am a big fan of technology and I always have high curiosity on how awesome these technologies linger around in your life without you saying "No!" to them. And...it has led me to do something unacceptable for both of my desires and plans. Well, finger-crossing for the unexpected consequences for the unexpected decision.

Moving on big brothers and sisters, and to the youngsters too...the expected. As my lazy butt disapproves me from running here and there, and oh...they are losing to my attention in badminton. I love badminton and I admit that I am losing the momentum of keeping a good speed in smashing the shuttle with the racket. Ohh...good old days. So, there I was, with my friend, going down the field, confidently, with our rackets. Gym was closed, but that was not the excuse made. We hit down the other court, the tennis court. Blending with rules in sport, we did some warming up with little, tiny perhaps, jogging around the court. Forgive me for this, but I was so not into fitness lately, I drowned in expelling stamina and at last, giving up after only few rounds. I told my friend, this would be a good reason for good sleep... (and this is where the unexpected unfolds).

I am wide awake. =.=

So much for making a comeback in sports, huh...So, it's Sunday. Have a blessed one and don't forget to get ready, mentally and physically for Monday. Don't hate Monday, put hopes to every day, that way, you'll find the positive reasons to smile.

XoXo. "I think reading facts will make me sleepy...will it?"

In need of good massage...

Give me choices.

Food/travelling/massage/shopping.

My answer (for the moment) : Massage

I have been sitting like a statue for almost 2 weeks. My back aches and I am in need of good massage!

XoXo.

Sitting can be so tiring. =.=

No turning back.

There is freaking no turning back. No time to waste. Nothing to lose. Nothing to spare.

There is only one way. To be tough it is. To be prepared it is. To be always demanded it is.

So, let's do this once and for all.

Can I at least be left alone for a while?

When I let go, I let GO!

Don't come back and look for me again. Who do you think you are? A passenger and I am the bus? You can come in and enjoy the ride then leave just like that? I'm not a bus, I am ME! So you better get a life!

An Owl

Tell me about having less sleeps than food. I can stand if I have less food intake rather than sleeping hours. I have to admit the fact that my dark circles below my eyes are worsen day by day. I feel like I'm an owl, except owl does not have to care much about dark circles.

Things, which are not really things, literally, are just composed like a huge bag of rocks, burdening and becoming troublemakers to my brain. Am I getting too old to be able to withstand the hours after midnight? I guess so and fyi, this is like the 20th-time I yawned!

Alright, just random post to at least notify that I am still be able to write on this blog. I'm alive people, live our lives!!! Bhhhuuuuwahahaha...So...yeah.

XoXo

A What-What Excuse

Busy is not an excuse. Being tired is not an excuse. Lots of work is not an excuse. Have no time, we all receive 24-hour per day. It has been really tough, really, when you're thinking too much. It is easy to say it out than to act it real.

Friends have advised me with the same sentence, "You're thinking too much. Relax". I'm scared of feeling regretful for not thinking too much. Typical, chaotic, and dysfunctional me!

But this is too much. I always wait for weekends to arrive, hoping to get all the work done in like 1,2,3 second, done, but that ain't the reality people! When I didn't get the work done well as how I wanted it to be, I don't blame others for that - what for to blame others when the core of the main reason why it happens magnified within you. You are the problem. Yes, I have problems.

I believe there are always ways to solve problems. I'll pray for the best, for everything that happens has its own reasons. Yes, long journey with rough roads ahead. Be strong, be confident and be wise.

XoXo

Defining my Valentine.

What is currently going on...

We had an epic presentation from Teo, sweet smile from Geo and awesome group discussions.

Well, I had chocolates and cookies! Talking about noodles - I meant by instant noodles! I miss food at home.

XoXo!

A day with Gaya.