Fragile:Break or Not To.

Just a thought to share with before I am gonna "pause" any blog-postings since exam is just at every end of the corner (just around the corner).

This one whole week, I'm in the state which everything that I read, write and think is lost in just a single blinking of eyes. Straight to the point, I can't concentrate.

Things are mixed up and I can't organise them cause they are blended together with a strong glue.

I just don't get it. No matter how hard I've tried to understand things that I read, it always ends uselessly. 

You may see me cry and you may see me mad. You may see me laugh and at some time, you may see me upset. It changes all the time and I'm undefined.

Maybe, for this moment, I'll just gonna stick to this sentence.

"No matter what happens, just let it happens and imperfection always be there for me and you."

XOXO.

Opps...It's EMPTY!

It's October 16th!

Saturday..

I have 7 mini Cloud 9 Chooey Choco and 3 pieces of Jacob biscuits for lunch.

Breakfast? Erm....Oat and Milo.

Work? Have washed all the bedsheets. Clothes? Done! Sweeping the floor? First thing done after getting out from bed.

Printing some information and notes for portfolio.

Music of the day: Abracadabra by Brown Eyed Girls.

Music video of the day: HUH by 4MINUTE.

*Remember my purse. Turn around and reach for it out of the bag. Opening...and....*

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Kyaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nothing's inside!

*Twisting and rolling on the bed!*

*Stop and think of numerous alternatives*

Ding Ding Ding..

Phone!

*Dialing mom's and dad's numbers.*

*Waiting for answer*

"Hello?"

*Smirking. Thought's evil laughter ="Hihihihihi"*

"Dad, mom, there's something I wanna tell you.."

*Conversation continues.*

*Crossing fingers*

*Wink!*

A typical student's life. (???) Is it?

P/S: This post is just for fun. Everything written is untrue except for first line till the 8th!

Happy Weekends...

XOXO.

LoVe!!

Different

To be frank, I feel a bit annoyed when the others, my friends, are checking the tickets to fly home. Jealousy?? Am I? Perhaps.. (Sorry for being offensive) MAS and AIRASIA homepage would get the most clicked website for almost everyday. As a Sarawakian who is currently studying in Sabah, honestly, I don't really feel the huge gap from this institute to my home.

I keep on asking myself...

Why can't I feel the eagerness like the others?

Why are they so excited to go home?

And just why I can't feel the same?

Sometimes, I'm trying to be as excited as them but I know in the end I am lying to myself.

My mom's persuasive words are really effective.

"You don't have to feel lonely cause God's always be beside you and we are not that far you know."

My mind sticks to this sentence and as optimistic as it can be seen, I soon realise the truth behind it.

I AM not that far from them. 

I still have phones to call them, to hear their voices.

I still have the Internet to chat with them.

And I still can visit the bank to wait for them to give me some extra money (??? Oppss...blooper..hihihi..)

The point is, sometimes you need to stay calm. There's no need to say:

"Oh my God, I'll be HOME in the next 2 minutes!" or

"Yes!!!Goodbye this f**cking place, I'm going HOME!" or

"Where the hell is my TRANSPORT??! I'm in hurry for a journey to me HOME."

(Ironically, these might be the statements that pop out in my mind everytime I'll be going home. ,^^)

Anyway, I MISS HOME...and I'm not in the rush to be at HOME!

..XOXO..

WitH LoVe.

Corby, Clothes and Courage.

I am so so addicted to have this cute little Samsung Corby.

I really want it! Seriously, I LOVE~Love~LOVE Corby!

Clothes? Herm...someone special will receive them in the upcoming weeks...

Hihihi..hope that person likes the gifts I bought for *blank*.

Courage...I hope I have the maximum courage to sit for the final exam.

Friends are visiting from room to room asking almost the same, similar and commonly-heard question:

"Are you ready for the exam?"

What cha want me to answer?

Exam that includes all syllabuses from first sem till the third, what'cha expect??

I will neither say I am prepared nor vice versa.

Just have faith in the Lord and hope everything will work excellently!

The power of God is always on the top, above all, & above everything!

XOXO.

Mood: Happy.

-With LovE-

I Don't!

I Don't Like to Talk Much Bout LOVE, as in LOVE with SOMEONE SPECIAL!

Maybe for NOW.

Graphics

So then.....

XOXO!

[Am watching chucky! He's hell cute!]

MUSIC!

4MINUTE has once brought and performed one of their singles MUZIK and I can say it was a blast!!!

Wow! I wanna dance to that MUZIK!

Argh...Love them especially HyunA.
Now they sing HUH and I, My, Me, Mine on stage with those sexy dance moves! 
Swing that ass babeh!!!

Anyway, all songs amuse me. As long as it is not "Dangdut".

Listen to music sometimes.

Sing along with the tunes sometimes.

And let music lights your life sometimes.

Carpe diem!

XOXO..

Lonely

"Lonely...I'm Mr. Lonely...I have nobody, For my own..." [Err...Mr.???]

Yes. Just an excerpt from the full lyrics which has been once sung by AKON~Mr. Lonely.

Wow..Now I can IMAGINE a day finishing just ONE ASSIGNMENT. I did not take evening nap and amazingly (???) I was trembling with hunger! Thanks for the Lee Fah Instant Noodle dearest Frans, it really had satisfied my starvation.

What's the post's title again? Oh ya, LONELY! Somehow and somewhat, I feel a bit lonely today, I mean, extremely LONELY. On the last Friday's night, I had a chat with my lil sist on YM. I video called her and through the 640 X 480 VGA Acer Crystal Webcam, I managed to see the faces of my parents and my dorky little sist..(Hahahha..hope she won't read this post!) Oh God, I miss them so much.

I wish I were at home right now.

Instant noodle for lunch and instant porridge for dinner! What a combination!!

After I'd taken my dinner, I felt much better. I received Big Apple doughnuts from my two besties: Ari Razky and Geoffrey Lim. I ate the doughnuts and it was no more hunger instead my stomach seemed to wanna BLOW!

Honestly, that's the first time I felt I'd craved so much for food. I usually let my stomach "sings" with its unique melody and I'll know at one time it will stop. Can't believe I'm a bit emotional, at home, I never felt the hunger as food always be there for me and mummy is always the best cook ever.

Anyway, September has gone, and it's 3rd of October. Happy Birthday to my dearest best sister @ colleague; Mcelley Lorience. Wishing you the best in your life.

Exam's around the corner.....Hope I can perform well and strive for flying colour results....God bless me. Amen.

XOXO..<3

Can I have my memories back?

Missing someone can be healed by meeting that someone.
But missing the memories and experiences you had gone through would never be healed (???possible???)


Friends say, we can go back to the old school by the time we are married and having children especially when we are missing the old teenage era of us. They even talk about having a reunion party.


It might be working for you, you may actually feel your memories back and reminisce those special moments, as for me, it's the vice versa of what you are expecting of.


I love to ponder of my past and question myself, will I ever have my memories back, as in will I am able to trick the time and get both of my feet to that particular sweet moment. I used to watch movies with unimaginable inventions like the time machine. 


I wonder if it's just a fiction or the possibility of making that time machine into a reality is in the ratio of 50:50 or maybe greater than that?


So then, it is possible to clutch my memories back?


*Sigh*.


XOXO.


P.S: I'm sad. Really sad for what I have chosen.
=(