Blow them off in 1, 2..3...xoxo

*laugh* 

Come on people, it's just writing. Put your thought of the word "laugh" into imagination! That's it! Now, you're just picturing. Put the sound effect in! Wow, that's marvelous. Your mind still works perfectly then if you're able to do this. That's pretty much of a quite-dumb-and-odd introduction isn't it, fellows?

What a day! I spent mostly on .... tada~ none other than...sleeping! Well, thanks for the birthday wishes to friends and family. I love you so much. It's been raining from yesterday till today. Good day for spending the time on the bed and close your eyes and start dreaming.

I should stop now before I'm talking nonsense. Have great days ahead people. Be awesome! Thanks for the cake mom. Love you. Love you all.

XoXo.

What matters...

XoXo.

Clouds.

Wow. I'm old enough to think about the future. Hahaha. Well, life is a surprise.

Being inspired lately by a song entitled "Clouds", it really does help how I reflect on my days in 2013. If you have time, go search behind-the-story of Clouds by Zach Sobiech, I'm sure you'll be inspired too.

2013, heck...there sure did lots of downs...and the ups were most likely the lessons learnt.

Whatever it is, thank you.

XoXo.

Carpe Diem.

Where are you Christmas?

This year, nothing the same as previous ones, is difficult to understand. Everything comes with challenges, and everyone is being served with choices. As much as you want your way to be on the straight road, the would always be obstacles too.

I'm looking for the melody of Christmas and the song "Where Are You Christmas?" really does capture my soul. This song reminds me of the time when I looked up and stared at the stars, I found a missing piece in my heart. It filled that empty space.

This year, the space remains a space after all. As I'm listening to the song, why do I feel nothing? It feels as if I'm lacking of something, or perhaps, someone? or maybe some place that I really want to be at. My heart is not here. 

Well, of all, it is still the joy and real meaning of Christmas existed everywhere at anytime.

So, people, with all of my loves, I'm wishing you and your family a blessed Christmas. May all the happiness be there with you and the lights of joy keep on shining in your life.

Merry Christmas.

XoXo.

A little Christmas gift for myself.

It's 13th.

Yes, 2 weeks have gone and people, holiday is coming to an end. Seriously, I'm wasting my time with only travelling here and there. No, it's not vacation or whatever, it's travelling from the same places.

p.s: I'm sick of this.

NIKON_1.1

Snap! Snap! Snap! Instagram!!

I'll say Instagram takes all the credits for providing simple yet beautiful effects for these photos I have taken today. Have smartphone, install Instagram and capture and share your moments.

Eventhough your smartphone owns 2MP camera, your moments are priceless. Keep on capturing and sharing those moments to everyone.

XoXo.

Take a little time to stop and stare.

Have you ever wondered to take that little ticking of time to stop and glance at the beauty of nature around you? To have a stare to those walks of life, everywhere, around you? There's thousands of reasons of why technology nowadays can finally surpass the inability of human relations to connect with each other from all around the world as compared to the previous ones. Take example, the smartphone. Last time, you have phone for the purpose of calling someone miles away. Now, you can even have video calls with friends from completely two different time zones. People are getting hectic with technology and I'm doing exactly the same thing.

Holiday means you have plenty, and by plenty I mean, that 24-hour is all yours to decide of what you want to do without worrying about necessary work to accomplish. What I did for the last couple of weeks, I logged in to my Instagram and snapped as many pictures around me as possible.

XoXo. Kiss hug kiss hug loves.

Moving on.

It is the hardest thing (it's not even a thing) to do. To move on from what you've been hiding from, to move on from what you've been staying loyal to and to move on from every past lives. Move on, people.

For young learners, happy holidays and don't forget to read books, at least story books of your own favourite!

XoXo.

You don't say...

Friends are wandering and asking "When are you planning to fly home? What's the date and time?". And I will be like..."Erm...when's the last paper, ...maybe Saturday? Oh, we can go back on Friday? What, can even go home on Thursday? - I'll ask my parents."

Yes, peeps. It's getting closer to exams and time is ticking. And after that, break, a really-quite-long-break-time. Finger-crossed for the best.

XoXo.

The reality is...

It's funny when you seem to have forgotten the habit that you've had since the age of ---7? Reading is a hobby, in my opinion, it's a beneficial habit to own or practise because it simply provides you with advantages. If you don't believe me, try to fill in the advantages vs disadvantages of reading - which one comes to the bottom margin of your paper? I love reading, in fact, I feel excited to have new books, to even look at them make me feel like "I wanna read this, I'll start with this first, oh no, I'll read this later on, etc." Oh yeah, so much in mind to make up a definite answer - but guess what?! In the end, I switch on my laptop and watch movies instead!

Since primary and secondary schooling, my best item-friends are books and television. Everytime when I feel like I need my brain to chill, I'll switch the TV on and browse for my favourite channels. As I watch TV, my head will be crammed with unanswered questions from the books - and yes, I reach out for the books, find the answers, feel satisfied and watch TV again. That happens frequently, a very high-degree of frequency in the action. 

REALITY CHECK! Here's the thing, I love reading books and such, but as how you choose your clothes to wear, I believe you'll wear your favourites often. So, it goes the same for books. Books are clothes, like clothes. I have my own genres that I preferred to read , and hey, don't label me a bookworm, as in reading for educational info and such. I love to read magazines, issues in relationships and never to be missed, promotions! The reality is ---- I don't really read that often, nowadays. Ooopsss.

Whatever it is girls and boys, read sometimes. It iS GOOD for everyone.

Carpe diem. XoXo. So... What did you read for today?

Why?

Why did you do it? Why would you do so? Just freaking why?

Hello back.

Where the heck I have been to for the last couple of months? I'll say...don't ask me that. Hahaha...

Well...as life is all about carpe diem, then here I am, seizing the day.

Just a way of saying, welcome back to....CLASS!

XoXo.

Hope and doubts.

Never to guess and never to think of what are inside of one's mind and heart. I have never put high hopes on anyone, including myself because I know by putting high hopes, it means putting up expectations. I hate expectations. And every expectation creates millions of doubts. It's better to not give high hopes. A little bit would do, but a lot of hopes can lead to expectations.

So try to reflect, why do you give hopes to others when you have trillions of doubts about them?

XoXo.

Warrior!

I came across this song when I was listening to covers made by KHS. It was in one of the videos, Lovato's medley song and the words "I'm a warrior" captured my attention. Wasting no time, I searched for the song and I am telling you now, IT'S AN AWESOME song!!!!!!!!!!!

This is a story that I have never told

I gotta get this off my chest to let it go

I need to take back the light inside you stole

You're a criminal

And you steal like you're a pro

All the pain and the truth

I wear like a battle wound

So ashamed, so confused

I was broken, and bruised

And now I'm a warrior

Now I've got thicker skin

I'm a warrior

I'm stronger than I've ever been

And my armor, is made of steel, you can't get in

I'm a warrior

And you can never hurt me again

Out of the ashes, I'm burning like a fire

You can save your apologies; you're nothing but a liar

I've got shame, I've got scars

That I will never show

I'm a survivor

In more ways than you know

Cause all the pain and the truth

I wear like a battle wound

So ashamed so confused, I'm not broken, or bruised

Cause now I'm a warrior

Now I got thicker skin

I'm a warrior

I'm stronger than I've ever been

And my armor, is made of steel, you can't get in

I'm a warrior

And you can never hurt me..

There's a part of me I cant get back

A little girl grew up too fast

All it took was once; Ill never be the same

Now I'm taking it back my life today

Nothing left that you can say

Cause you were never gonna take the blame anyway

Now I'm a warrior

I've got thicker skin

I'm a warrior

I'm stronger than I've ever been

And my armor, is made of steel, I cant get it

I'm a warrior

And you can never hurt me again

Nooo oooh yeaah yeaah

You can never hurt me again

Thumbs up to Demi!

Best Part.

I really have no idea why I would have chosen "Carpe diem" as one of my favourite words of all. It simply means "Live your life to the fullest".

I keep on writing it in any of my statuses and even in text messages and I wonder if I ever really living my life to the fullest. These few days I have been through with inner crises and I can't really do my work.

This is what happened if we hate somebody for no reason...well, I hate somebody with lots of reasons, illogical reasons to speak the truth. And as I am writing, the person is simply in my mind. Fcuk, should get it ripped off my mind.

I really need to exercise. This holiday falls exactly on two important dates, my cousin's and my dad's birthdays. Talking bout food, man, delicious and simply get your tummy burst!

So, I did little workout after months of no-working-out. And now, I got my hips so painful and my back, ouch! I should have done it slow and steady. These selcas are just extras. Nothing personal and nothing special bout them.

Like I have always written, Carpe diem.

XoXo.

I want myself back.

Dear Udet,

Do you still remember the moment when you were struggling very hard to fight for your future when you were in high school?

Do you still remember the moment when you had chosen study over food?

Do you still remember the moment when you failed, and you never giving up?

Do you still remember the moment when in your head, the only thing existed was study, study and study?

Please, wake up and be yourself.

Sincerely,

The old Miss Udet.

No Mr. Right.

I came across one of my friends' blogs and he wrote there that I had found my Mr. Right. Well, I think I need to come clean with some few important things.

First, what I may have said once, was not exactly the truth. Partially, herm...maybe yes. I do love someone, and now...somehow, that 'do' eventually becomes a 'did'. So, a history? It can be a yaaayy no longer.

Second, what you see is not exactly as what it seems to be. What's in my mind, is completely different from what physically I will react. I mean, my brain says to pick up the phone, I want to do so, but my hands are not moving. So, there's basically the concept of how you see me. You can say that my reflects towards something are unique.

Third, it's a looooonnnnng way to go, honey. Seriously, there's so much to do! I've always had that "Carpe Diem" thought wherever I go. This semester somehow changes my perceptions, mostly about how should I reflect everything I have done in my life.

Dear friend, if you ever read this, I am not saying that you are wrong, you are right, at that time, but things change, it wouldn't stay the same, agreed?

XoXo. Love you all.

Of the Why and the Cry.

Remember when people love to depict that life is a roller-coaster ride? Well, of course, there's up and down of life and today, it's all about the down.

Blacklisted was the name of the place, but here am I looking at it as a challenge. What does the word "challenge" means...? Why does "challenge" have to be there? How does exactly "challenge" work?

Blacklisted was the name of the relationship, but here am I staying still in the wrecking ship. Oooh...I didn't even realise it was rhymed. Will the ship wreck and sink or will it stay up till reaching the shore? God knows.

Blacklisted was the name of the day, but here am I still looking forward for it. Hope was and is there. I couldn't even manage to find it. I hope to find you back, dear hope.

XoXo.

A little time!

Here's a little written story with a little time taken to ponder before busy months strike.

I've ever felt such way of being too depressed over such simple things. I've ever felt that it is easier to pretend than to tell the truth. I've ever felt that life is not busy but it is yourself that makes it as hectic as possible. The rules are simple, to follow them are the hardest.

Months passed by...unnoticed. Life goes on and do people really change?

I can starve for days, not physically, but mentally from being able to figure out what really matters the most. I have had wonderful times. Yes, there are times for worst days and unlucky hours. But just that simple smile and simple "Hello, good morning" can actually brighten up your whole day. How I wish I'm at home, looking at  the old photos and hoping if I can still remember the scenes and scents that existed.

All I need is to be prepared!

XoXo. Love you citizens.

Problem?

If you ever have a Facebook account (of which I believe everyone has), you might have come across this particular funny cartoon characters known by most as the MEME. Some may recognise it as the TROLL characters. Somehow, it became very popular and printed images of these cartoon characters have been widely used as a well-known printed logos on t-shirts and bags. As a big fan of these characters, I kinda asking my sister to find me a simple printed MEME character t-shirt, and she got it! It's a black t-shirt with this large cartoon character, grinning in purple. I was hoping it would be white in colour but of all, I'm completely fallin' in love with it. 

XoXo!

Little niece.

Introducing this new baby!

Baby Lahung!!!

XoXo! Carpe diem!

Be Green!

Chosen by my little sister, I love this green colour lens. Just wanna try it out.

XoXo

That one day of Good Food!

One thing I like about home is that you can have good food.....or...maybe not, sometimes. This one particular day was like a treat to my desire of having good food. Yes, my dad can't stand his hunger and he would like to have a piece of lamb chop and as for us, your own choice from the menu! Even though these food cost a Sereni and Shentel headband, I guess as long as they are able to make you happy, why not have a bite! I chose pork, of course, and my sister chose the flavour, with black pepper. As for her, she chose to have chicken with mushroom! What a bliss!

It was definitely a tiring day, here I am, waiting for dad to pick us up.

Ice Lemon Tea!

Here's my yummy pork with black pepper! Order is served!

A closer look!

I would love to have those tomatoes more in this bowl, please.

Chicken mushroom!

This is my sister, look alike...and we are happy for the good food!

XoXo!

Random Days.

It's been almost 5 days of staying in Miri and going nowhere. I felt bored, of course. Not to mention that the days have passed by without any joy and fun. I want to go back somewhere, maybe to the old wonderful town, Marudi or my lovely hometown, Long Lama.

Whatever days it may be and how I feel, I will try to smile all the times. Maybe as the starter, it does not turn out to be that good. XoXo.

Last Wonderful April.

My days were so CREATIVE as these pupils always in the AWESOME ZONE!

Thank you for everything.

Wishing you the best in your future Year 3K's students.

Thank you to the school too - SK Apin-Apin.

XoXo.

CitraColours!

What happened is the passion's killer.

I came to know that the item which had costed me more than hundred was spoiled to the length that it cannot be fixed at all.

I was so eager to have it and in the end, I felt like I want to throw and burn it down.

I'm sad...and felt so mad at the same time.

I wish I can redo all of this.

XoXo.

:(

Cute and funny.

I spent my last day of a week holiday with my cousin, looking for some items in the Giant Supermarket, Permy Mall. We were separated from my sister and my mother. And the funny thing here was that my sister and my mother were not together (as what I thought they should be). Worst thing was that my mom just lost her phone, so it will be like heading for a treasure hunt without any clue - looking for her.

Thus, my sister went up and down the elevators looking for her.Here's the cute moment: The time when my sister was looking for her, mom was standing at a corner, watching what she was doing. She didn't say a word to my sister, letting her to do all the "hard work" of searching mom.

Hahaha...torturing or just simply making fun of her? Have no idea of the motive but hye, we need thing like this to sometime happens in our life.

XoXo.

Just a random story.

Carpe diem citizens.

Shining star of my life.

You can run million of miles, swimming across the vast sea and even climbing on the highest mountains, and at the moment you stumble and fall, you end up finding someone's reaching out her hand to help you - that's a mother.

Holiday seems short enough for a completely do-nothing person like me. When it comes to an end, it reminds me of the time I have wisely wasted and regret is no exception. Life is no regret though. As I have reminded myself of keeping it up with the "Carpe diem" mode, there's absolutely nothing to be ashamed of.

Of almost a week holiday, I had my mom and dad, sister and cousin to accompany me. Well, little time of theirs is a greatest time of mine. Appreciate all those moments. Grab the chance, you might not have it again.

XoXo. Carpe Diem girls and guys.

"Seriousnessity" of life.

I guess life is no joke. You can't really smile all the times. There must be a little tear droppin' all over your cheeks and frowning on your face, and yeah probably smirking when you find something's funny.

Oh yeah...most of the pictures I've taken so far, I've never looked darn serious in them. So, I tried to look serious in this picture and this is the outcome.

=.= Oooh... I look like a sleepyhead-girl. Gosh....nevertheless, awesome man!

Random me!

XoXo! Carpe diem guys n girls.

People.

People are trying to bring you down because you're a few steps above them.

So...be cool bout it!

Carpe Diem!

Xoxo!

I'm wearing IT!!!

Awesome man!!!

Wohoo!

I completely forgot about this order and when I had it in my hands, I was like : Shot! This is awesome! Cool!!! Damn yeah!

XoXo!

DIY.

Taking the day into your own hands was an absolute wonder!

My cousin was too busy with some issues to solve ASAP and I woke up around what 10am! I slept at 3am, waiting for downloads.

So yeah, I cut them without doubts!!!

All I can feel is AWESOME man!!!!!!!!!!!!

XoXo! Carpe Diem!

Dear family...

Dear family,

I love all of you...sincerely from the bottom of my heart.

I love you for everything...

You've always made my day and let me smile all day long.

Thank you and I love you.

XoXo.

p/s: Oh yeah...I miss holidays.

Don't get me wrong.

People...people...people...

Don't get me wrong...

I'm not allergic to food...and I'm not putting the scale down...

It is just that I don't have the appetite.

And another reason is that I've overspent!!! I need to save monehhhhh babeeehhhh!

XoXo

To have you...

To have you...

It's like travelling across the universes...

To have you...

It's like catching the forever escaping wind...

To have you...

It's like watching over a dying star...

To have you...

It's like continuous complaining without winning...

To have you...

It was just a dream.

For the truth says that I can't have you at all.

XoXo

Just a dream.

"It was only just a dream"...

.....

sigh

XoXo

I miss home.

No...the title is not exactly as what you think I feel right now.

I do not miss home. I miss the time I did not spend wisely at home.

Seriously, I regret of doing the same routine all over again.

Like?

Eat, sleep, Internet, eat, sleep, Internet.

I want to walk with my sport shoes on.

I want to sit on the couch and watch the TV.

I want to have all things I needed and cook something I love.

I want to ride on the bicycle and raise up both hands as if I'm flying.

I just want to enjoy the moments.

I'm sorry for what I have said but it's true. I didn't even have those chances. Please, let me enjoy the moments next time when it comes again.

XoXo.

BLuE

Father, have Your Way_GMB

I love this song so much, what more when GMB sang it in two versions!

Here's the lyrics based on what I'd listened!

All I desire

Is just to be with You

And all You desire

Is everything in me

Never imagine

That I could find

Love's so faithful

It goes on forever

So here I am waiting

Take my hand and all of me

Chorus:

As I come

Seek Your face

Make this new day

Filled with Your grace

Won't You come

Dwell in me

Father have Your way

Let Your Name

Be Magnified

In all of my days

You are glorified

Won't You come

Dwell in me

Father have Your way

Na na na na na na na na na

Na na na na na na na na na

Na na na na na na na na na

Na na na na na na na na na

Sing the song together

All I desire

Is just to be with You

Ooo..and all You desire

Is everything in me

Never imagine

That I could find

Love's so faithful

Goes on forever

So here I am waiting

Take my hand and all of me

Chorus:

As I come

Seek Your face

Make this new day

Filled with Your grace

Won't You come, Lord

Dwell in me

Father have Your way

Let Your Name

Be Magnified

In all of my days

You are glorified

Won't You come

Dwell in me

Oh Lord

Father have Your way...

Father have Your way

In me...

Father have Your way

In me...

Oh....na na na..

La na na na na na na na na..

XoXo! Praise the Lord!! Amen!!!

LoMo the LOmO!

I've been thinking about what's life will be without creativity lingering around? Dull...(｡~.~)

I'm so into AquaPix that at one point, something strikes in my mind "Be unique!" (='o'=) 

As I was looking for papers in the boxes, I came across these "blings-blings" which I had used for my project. Herm...and somehow, my blue AquaPix came to mind and BOOM! Let's have AquaBlingPix! Kekeke....✾✽✼✻

These pictures are being posted just to try out some effects made from one of the camera applications I'd downloaded long time ago. So...here goes...

XoXo!(｡◕‿◕｡)